What is your relationship with stage anxiety and fear, and how has this changed over the years?
It has changed… I remember when I was very young, my very first experiences in public (I started performing concerts very early, around 13-14 years old, although they were obviously very sporadic experiences). Well, I remember that at the time I didn’t experience performing in public as something particularly strong from the point of view of my emotional reaction, it was almost like a game. Growing up, as the years passed, maturing, I felt the concert much more. I wouldn’t call it anxiety, it’s a form of apprehension, a desire to do well, first of all for myself, but then also as a form of responsibility towards those who listen to me. I have definitely learned to manage it, and it’s part of the experience, it’s a part I wouldn’t honestly give up. I believe I have learned over time to transform this sensation into something that becomes a catalyst for concentration, it helps me to regain extreme concentration when I am in public, which is also what sometimes allows spontaneous and beautiful musical ideas to arise in the moment. So, it makes every experience unique. So, I live with it, it’s something that I believe can never be completely eliminated. And it’s okay like that.
It essentially comes from the awareness of the difficulty of what we are doing, and of the responsibility we have, it comes from the desire to do well. When you are very young, you don’t perceive all of this, but with time, yes. So I would say that yes, it’s a sensation that I know well, that has been with me for many years, but with which I live very serenely.
I have also learned over time not to live with the anxiety of making a mistake if it happens, patience. Nothing serious, well, you also need, in my opinion, to learn to live serenely with the live public experience, which by its nature has different characteristics compared to, for example, recording. I like more today, perhaps, than before, to take risks, when I perform in public.
Certainly, and speaking of recordings, you have recorded several CDs in your life, has there been a recording that really put you to the test?
Yes, more than one, I must say.
There, mistakes are not allowed
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